Well, today was suppose to be my first day back at work but due to the snow, I have an extra day off. I have to say that I felt a HUGE sense of relief when they cancelled school. Today was suppose to be an inservice day without the kids and oddly enough that scares me more than being around my 4th graders. I work with wonderful people, don't get me wrong, but I am just worried. I don't want to be treated any different and I really just want to go back to "normal". But as my mom reminded me, I have a new "normal". People will look at me differently and will probably feel sorry for me. As much as I hate that, I know I would feel the same way if it was someone else.
I also have my four week post-pardom checkup today. I can't believe it has already been four weeks. Hopefully today we will get some answers about what went wrong. At the ultrasound it looked like it was probably a chromosome thing, but today we should know for sure. I think this is going to make me feel better and hopefully let Josh and I start thinking about the future.
Last, I am excited to say that my little sister Alyson has started a blog. She is 9 years younger than me and she is WONDERFUL! She has really helped me through some of the rough times these past 4 weeks...she even performed her Macy's dance at the hospital for me! I love her dearly and I am so proud of all her accomplishments.
I hope everyone has a great day!
Monday, January 4, 2010
Friday, January 1, 2010
Menu Fridays
So, as mentioned in my last post I have a goal to lose 20 pounds before our spring break trip to Orlando (I am not too concerned with the timeline as long as I get the weight off). When I dieted in the past I found that Weight Watchers worked best for me. I really don't consider it a diet, just healthier eating and being more aware of what I am eating.
Josh and I are also implementing Dave Ramsey's Total Money Makeover (Josh calls it the money diet) this year, which will mean that we are going to have to stop eating out so much. My goal is to plan healthy meals that will be quick and easy to make. I love looking at recipes on blogs, so I decided that I am going to include our weekly menu on my blog every week with a link to the recipes. Hopefully it will keep me accountable with both of my "diets". I am going to try to put the menus up on Friday (even though Menu Monday sounds so much better) because I tend to do my grocery shopping on Saturdays. I hope this helps you too!
Sunday--Eggplant Parmesan and steamed broccoli (the steamer kind found in the freezer section)
Monday--Thai fried rice
Tuesday--left overs
Wednesday--baked garlic lemon tilapia and baked zucchini sticks
Thursday--Jenio turkey burgers (you can buy a box of 12 in the meat department) and broccoli-rice-and cheese (the steamer kind)
Friday--turkey taco lettuce wraps
Saturday--broiled tilapia and roasted brussel sprouts (okay, for those of you that hate the thought of brussel sprouts this recipe might change your mind. I have made them several times and LOVE them!)
I am also going to make a healthy dessert that we can eat on through out the week so that I am not tempted to eat junk (I have a minor addiction to Reeses!)
Dessert--No-bake cheesecake
Well, that will be our menu for the week. I hope that it gives you some ideas!
Josh and I are also implementing Dave Ramsey's Total Money Makeover (Josh calls it the money diet) this year, which will mean that we are going to have to stop eating out so much. My goal is to plan healthy meals that will be quick and easy to make. I love looking at recipes on blogs, so I decided that I am going to include our weekly menu on my blog every week with a link to the recipes. Hopefully it will keep me accountable with both of my "diets". I am going to try to put the menus up on Friday (even though Menu Monday sounds so much better) because I tend to do my grocery shopping on Saturdays. I hope this helps you too!
Sunday--Eggplant Parmesan and steamed broccoli (the steamer kind found in the freezer section)
Monday--Thai fried rice
Tuesday--left overs
Wednesday--baked garlic lemon tilapia and baked zucchini sticks
Thursday--Jenio turkey burgers (you can buy a box of 12 in the meat department) and broccoli-rice-and cheese (the steamer kind)
Friday--turkey taco lettuce wraps
Saturday--broiled tilapia and roasted brussel sprouts (okay, for those of you that hate the thought of brussel sprouts this recipe might change your mind. I have made them several times and LOVE them!)
I am also going to make a healthy dessert that we can eat on through out the week so that I am not tempted to eat junk (I have a minor addiction to Reeses!)
Dessert--No-bake cheesecake
Well, that will be our menu for the week. I hope that it gives you some ideas!
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Good Riddance
Yesterday morning on The Today Show (I love that show and I am really going to miss it when I go back to work!) they showed where Times Square had huge shredding machines set up so people could go and write down what they would like to forget about 2009 or things they would like to give up in 2009. I think it is a wonderful idea so I decided to make my own list!
1. Worrying about silly things--this is a major problem for me. I am constantly worrying about people liking me, parents of my students approving of me, is my husband mad at me, "what ifs", the list goes on and on.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart;do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.Proverbs 3:5-6
2. Stress--I think this would probably go with number 1 because I tend to stress over silly stuff I am worrying about. I am going to do my best as a teacher and TRY not to second guess myself so much. (my job is where the majority of my stress comes from)
So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.Matthew 6:34
3. Retail Therapy--now don't get me wrong, I am not saying goodbye to shopping (I could never do that!), I am just going to stop the "impulse" shopping. Today I cleaned and organized my closet and got rid of SIX trash bags full of clothes and shoes (some were Josh's). The sad thing is that several items still had the tag on them! Josh and I are doing okay financially, but I know we could be doing so much better. My best friend recently told me about the book Total Money Makeover by Dave Ramsey. I have started reading it and I really feel like we can make a few simple changes that will help us out in the long run.
A sensible man watches for problems ahead and prepares to meet them. The simpleton never looks, and suffers the consequences. Proverbs 22:3
4. Those last 20 pounds--two years ago I was at my heaviest weight, which I do not wish to reveal here! :) I decided that I needed a change so I began Weight Watchers. I love this diet program because it really isn't much of a diet, but more of just eating healthier. I stayed on it, sometimes not as much as I should, but I continued on and l0st 25 pounds. I wasn't at my goal, but I was close. I have kept the majority of the weight off, but I have to admit that once I found out I was pregnant I didn't try as hard to eat healthy. So, although I would much rather still be pregnant, I am going to lose those last 20 pounds. Josh and I are going to Orlando over spring break, so my goal is to have the weight off by then.
I can do all things through Christ which strengthen me. Philippians 4:13
So there you have it...those are the things I am saying "Good Riddance" to this year. What will you say goodbye to?
1. Worrying about silly things--this is a major problem for me. I am constantly worrying about people liking me, parents of my students approving of me, is my husband mad at me, "what ifs", the list goes on and on.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart;do not depend on your own understanding. Seek his will in all you do, and he will show you which path to take.Proverbs 3:5-6
2. Stress--I think this would probably go with number 1 because I tend to stress over silly stuff I am worrying about. I am going to do my best as a teacher and TRY not to second guess myself so much. (my job is where the majority of my stress comes from)
So do not worry about tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.Matthew 6:34
3. Retail Therapy--now don't get me wrong, I am not saying goodbye to shopping (I could never do that!), I am just going to stop the "impulse" shopping. Today I cleaned and organized my closet and got rid of SIX trash bags full of clothes and shoes (some were Josh's). The sad thing is that several items still had the tag on them! Josh and I are doing okay financially, but I know we could be doing so much better. My best friend recently told me about the book Total Money Makeover by Dave Ramsey. I have started reading it and I really feel like we can make a few simple changes that will help us out in the long run.
A sensible man watches for problems ahead and prepares to meet them. The simpleton never looks, and suffers the consequences. Proverbs 22:3
4. Those last 20 pounds--two years ago I was at my heaviest weight, which I do not wish to reveal here! :) I decided that I needed a change so I began Weight Watchers. I love this diet program because it really isn't much of a diet, but more of just eating healthier. I stayed on it, sometimes not as much as I should, but I continued on and l0st 25 pounds. I wasn't at my goal, but I was close. I have kept the majority of the weight off, but I have to admit that once I found out I was pregnant I didn't try as hard to eat healthy. So, although I would much rather still be pregnant, I am going to lose those last 20 pounds. Josh and I are going to Orlando over spring break, so my goal is to have the weight off by then.
I can do all things through Christ which strengthen me. Philippians 4:13
So there you have it...those are the things I am saying "Good Riddance" to this year. What will you say goodbye to?
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Christmas in Heaven
So I'm not going to lie and say that I am totally enjoying the holidays. I think I preoccupied myself with gift buying and wrapping presents so much that I didn't realize how truly difficult this Christmas was going to be for me. Josh and I exchanged stockings yesterday morning and I spent the rest of the morning crying my eyes out. We went to my dad's house last night for our annual Christmas sleepover. This is usually one of my favorite celebrations, but I spent the whole night just trying to hold it together. As I was going to sleep last night it hit me...there is no present, no family gathering, no Christmas tradition that is going to bring Tytus back to us. There is never going to be anything that is ever going to fill that void in my heart. I know that life will go on and that hopefully we will have a house full of children some day, but nothing is going to take his place.
I found the following poem earlier from a mom who lost her baby girl at birth. It does bring comfort to know that Tytus is spending his first Christmas with Jesus. I love you baby boy...Merry Christmas!
I found the following poem earlier from a mom who lost her baby girl at birth. It does bring comfort to know that Tytus is spending his first Christmas with Jesus. I love you baby boy...Merry Christmas!
I see the countless Christmas trees around the world below, with tiny lights like Heaven's stars reflecting on the snow.
The sight is so spectacular please wipe away that tear,for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,but the sound of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you of the joy their voices bring, for it is beyond description to hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart, But I am not so far away, we really aren't apart.
I can't tell you of the splendor or the peace here in this place, Can you just imagine Christmas with our Savior face to face?
I'll ask Him to lift your spirit as I tell Him of your love, so then pray for one another as you lift your eyes above.
Please let your hearts be joyful and let your spirit sing, for I am spending Christmas in Heaven, and I’m walking with the King.
~ Wanda Bencke
The sight is so spectacular please wipe away that tear,for I am spending Christmas with Jesus Christ this year.
I hear the many Christmas songs that people hold so dear,but the sound of music can't compare with the Christmas choir up here.
I have no words to tell you of the joy their voices bring, for it is beyond description to hear the angels sing.
I know how much you miss me, I see the pain inside your heart, But I am not so far away, we really aren't apart.
I can't tell you of the splendor or the peace here in this place, Can you just imagine Christmas with our Savior face to face?
I'll ask Him to lift your spirit as I tell Him of your love, so then pray for one another as you lift your eyes above.
Please let your hearts be joyful and let your spirit sing, for I am spending Christmas in Heaven, and I’m walking with the King.
~ Wanda Bencke
Wednesday, December 16, 2009
Hanging in there...
Well, life is finally getting back to normal this week. Along with the miscarriage several other stressful things happened the past two weeks. First, I got a spinal headache from the epidural and had to go back to the hospital for a blood patch. It was not fun, but my head hurt so bad that anything would of felt better than that headache. The day after I went to the hospital for the blood patch my father-in-law had a heart attack and had to have triple bypass surgery. Talk about a stressful week! The surgery went well and he is now recovering at home.
This week I am taking it easy at home. I have a newer appreciation for my job now. Although staying at home all day sounds great, after a few days it gets boring (I know it will be different when we have a kid at home). I think I have gone to Hobby Lobby at least 3 times this week and have completed many projects. I miss my students so much and I can't wait to see them at our Christmas party on Friday.
Although this whole process has been very hard physically and emotionally, I feel so abundantly blessed to have such amazing family and friends. Not a day goes by that someone doesn't call and check up on me or comes over while Josh is working. I have always been close to my mom, and we have grown even closer through this. Also, I always knew that I had a wonderful Mother-in-law, but I have learned so much from her the past two weeks. She is such a strong Christian woman with an unbelievable faith in God. Last I have to mention my WONDERFUL husband. We found out we miscarried on a Thursday and he was suppose to leave the next day for a 10 day trip to Washington D.C. with some students from his school. He immediately called his principal and arranged for someone else to go. He did not leave my side at the hospital and he took such great care of me when I got home. Josh and I have been together since I was in 9th grade...never did I think we would have to go through something like this. It is amazing how something so tragic can bring two people so close together. He is going to be a great father someday.
Sorry for all the rambling...I just have so much going through my head these days.
This week I am taking it easy at home. I have a newer appreciation for my job now. Although staying at home all day sounds great, after a few days it gets boring (I know it will be different when we have a kid at home). I think I have gone to Hobby Lobby at least 3 times this week and have completed many projects. I miss my students so much and I can't wait to see them at our Christmas party on Friday.
Although this whole process has been very hard physically and emotionally, I feel so abundantly blessed to have such amazing family and friends. Not a day goes by that someone doesn't call and check up on me or comes over while Josh is working. I have always been close to my mom, and we have grown even closer through this. Also, I always knew that I had a wonderful Mother-in-law, but I have learned so much from her the past two weeks. She is such a strong Christian woman with an unbelievable faith in God. Last I have to mention my WONDERFUL husband. We found out we miscarried on a Thursday and he was suppose to leave the next day for a 10 day trip to Washington D.C. with some students from his school. He immediately called his principal and arranged for someone else to go. He did not leave my side at the hospital and he took such great care of me when I got home. Josh and I have been together since I was in 9th grade...never did I think we would have to go through something like this. It is amazing how something so tragic can bring two people so close together. He is going to be a great father someday.
Sorry for all the rambling...I just have so much going through my head these days.
Saturday, December 12, 2009
Loss
I'm not sure exactly where to begin this post, so I'm just going to start. I really don't want to post a status on facebook that said that I had a miscarriage so I will just explain everything here.
Last Thursday moring Josh and I went to the "big ultrasound" to find out the sex of our baby. We were sadly told that our baby had passed away. I was 19 weeks pregnant. Since I was so far along we had no choice but to induce labor. Friday evening at 11:15 we delivered a son. We named him Tytus Ray.
A week has passed and while my body is healing, I'm not sure about my heart. I know that it will take time and I am so very blessed to have such a strong support system. It is so weird for your heart to be so full and empty at the same time.
Last Thursday moring Josh and I went to the "big ultrasound" to find out the sex of our baby. We were sadly told that our baby had passed away. I was 19 weeks pregnant. Since I was so far along we had no choice but to induce labor. Friday evening at 11:15 we delivered a son. We named him Tytus Ray.
A week has passed and while my body is healing, I'm not sure about my heart. I know that it will take time and I am so very blessed to have such a strong support system. It is so weird for your heart to be so full and empty at the same time.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
So I stink at this blogging thing...
Well, it has been a long time and I really don't have any excuses. I am really going to try to become better about the whole blogging thing. I think I have just felt like I haven't had anything important to blog about however....I think I do now! Josh and I found out the day before school started that we are expecting! I feel so lucky that things worked out the way they did. We are due May 1st so I will be able to work all but the last few weeks of this school year. We had our first doctor's appointment last Wednesday and I was SO NERVOUS! Everything has gone so smooth that I was almost wondering if I was actually pregnant! Hearing that heartbeat was so amazing. The doctor said everything looks and sounds good. I am 12 weeks and have felt great, for the most part, the entire time. I did find out that I am mildy anemic and have to start iron supplements. I also have to go in tomorrow for another urinalysis (msp?) which will have to be done by a catheter which I am not really looking foward to. The nurse told me it was nothing to worry about but I have to say that it doesn't sound that fun!
So that is the quick re-cap. Hopefully now I will be better about the blogging! Have a great week!
So that is the quick re-cap. Hopefully now I will be better about the blogging! Have a great week!
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